Saturday, March 18, 2006

Identity Crisis

You may notice things look a little different around here.

Remember the move I mentioned a while back? I'm still considering it. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to find EVERYTHING I wanted in a new home for the price I'm willing to pay. (Which, in case you were wondering, is "free".)

In the meantime, I continue to grow and change. Baby steps. Step #1: shed the name I'm so bored with. Nothing removes the label of indecision like giving yourself a new name.

Names and titles are critical to their owners. When I started blogging over a year ago, I couldn't think of a good title, so I just chose Indecisive Girl. I think part of my problem was that I wasn't really clear on my purpose yet.

As the months went on, I thought more and more about this site. What is my purpose? What is this blog about, really?

A big chunk of it is about Ethan. His first few years were so life-changing that I was driven to write about them. I have a lot to share about his early years, and my experiences raising a child with special needs.

Part of it is about CG. Lately I've been learning to deal with a two-year-old, and all that comes with the needy toddler years.

Some of it is about Jete. About how special our marriage is, despite all the obstacles we've had in the way of medical issues, full-time jobs and loads of dishes.

But really, when you get right down to it, it's not about them. It's about Me.

I write because it makes me feel good. I write because I want to believe I have something to say, something people want to read. I'm longing to be someone who can contribute to the world. Maybe, someone who can make a difference. I want to be Special.

And that? Makes me pretty damn Needy.

And so I give you, "Special and Needy". A little about them, and a whole lot more about Me.

Well? What do you think? Don't be shy. Needy people love feedback.


Billie said...

Love it! Special and Needy...Sounds like my household.

I like reading your blog because you are so open about your feelings, and while it is often about your kids and family, it is mostly about you. I sometimes think I should start another blog. I don't know that I could get away with blogging too much about myself because of the way mine is designed to be about the girls. But sometimes, I need to talk about me instead of them! It's definitely therapeutic.

Kelly said...

A definate YES! Change is a hard thing sometimes, but this, THIS is a good change! And I love the banner! I've been looking around at all the cool stuff out there too. Hopefully mine will get a face lift sometime soon. I definately want to avoid leaving Blogger, but there's so much fun-stuff out there....I want to play with it all! I got a few IT guys around to help, so maybe I can pull it off sometime down the road....

It's like adding a new coat of paint...the room is so much more fun to be in now, huh? :)

cluelesscarolinagirl said...

I like it. Can I link you?

Sank said...

I like the change alot. The site looks great. Also, you kind of helped me to answer the question I've been having around, why do I write all this stuff. Good answer, 'cause I like it. Since I check it almost every day would you mind a link on my "Blogs I read" list? You'd be first, the other ones I read, also dealing with the "why do I do this" quesion took the other option and have decided to stop blogging.

Anyway, great change, and great blog.

Julie said...

All I know is that I'm happy every time I see you have a new post. And that your comments on my blog are always among the most thought-provoking and helpful. Special? Yes, very definitely.

Mete said...

Okay, now you guys are making me blush. Thank so much for the nice words. I'm still amazed that anyone would be interested in my ramblings. Some days, I'm not even sure I am. :)

If you'd like to link to me, by all means, please do. I'm honored that you even asked.

You realize I'm probably gonna turn horribly dull now, right?

Erin said...

A. I love it.
B. Your children are beautiful
C. Keep writing girl!!

erica said...

Oh man, that pic of CG is priceless. Hee!
I like the new look. Thumbs up.

M&Co. said...

Love the new title!

rajdiver said...

I like the new name. I still read here at least once a week. It's good to know how you're doing after all these year of not being in touch.

sherry said...

It's one of my first visits and, I must say, it's divine. I LOVE it! And will return often.

Mel said...

Loving the new look!